Peter Parker's Curious Web

Two of my favourite life-studies projects that I did in...

Mon, 13 May 2013 19:34:15 -0400

Two of my favourite life-studies projects that I did in college.
Even to this day they remain in my top five favourite works of art

My self outside of self

Thu, 09 May 2013 04:57:04 -0400

The forest is alive with sounds & smells,
Colours so vibrant the creatures so alert.
As I move among them they crowd me,
crowding my periphery.
We are distant by species,
Connected by souls.
A hare rushes across my path,
Instinct comes alive & I pounce.
I catch it & hold it down with my paws,
Wrap my maw around it’s neck…
I awake,
Human again & hungry,
I must wait to return.
Return to my true self.

Peter Davis-Parker

It’s easy to love you Khloe, miss you, Highwulf

Thu, 09 May 2013 04:55:45 -0400

It’s easy to love you Khloe, miss you, Highwulf

The Dakness in me

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 14:59:20 -0400

The darkness surrounds me,

enveloping & protecting.

The Devil consumes me,

warping my soul & spirit.

Living in nature I see both worlds

man, beast & nature all side beside

I belong to none.

I walk with the wildlife

they walk with I

Man demands my presence

while shunning my very existence.

I continue to prowl with the shadows veiling me

I keep my hunting instincts barely in check

I keep my spiritual brothers safe

how close man encroaches

Only Darkness in me will approach,

Only Darkness can protect them

untitled darkness - semi dream

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 14:53:17 -0400

I walk down the corridor, the same corridor I have walked down a hundred times before. The darkness has never seemed so all all encroaching though it has always been pitch. There is an underlying oppression… one I have felt before but cannot recall where.

As I stumble along the way I feel a light switch stick out gently from the wall. I reach out to touch it but… but I cannot, can’t bear to so what I know awaits me in the black.

I pluck up the nerve to face the unseen & as I it a shuffling in the shadows chills me to the very core of my soul.

I feel it at the corner of my consciousness, scratching, clawing & almost caressing me. Attempting to entice & enslave me. Trying to keep me entombed forevermore in the cavernous basement,

I switch on the light & watch in horror as a man, a man I know from another life, stands mere inches away.

He reaches for me & all turns to darkness

I start awake, covered in a thin veil of cold perspiration

Health concerns: It's been a really long year

Sat, 15 Dec 2012 20:29:00 -0500

As some of you know for the last two weeks I have been hospitalised with my back.
What some of you may not be aware of is what is wrong with me, at the behest of

StickyVicky our commander I make this thread…

I was born with Scoliosis (curved spine) and have a genetic disorder wherein my spine has for the last thirty years been crumbling causing lower limb paralysis at times and excruciating pain.
I was in a traffic accident nearly five years ago where my hip was almost destroyed,
the doctors repaired the damage but could not prevent the protective lining from becoming infected so my hip is effectively eating itself, again… painful.

For the last eighteen days my pain has been unberarable which is why I was hospitalised.

Am now on 30+ pills a day (inc valium) and 3+hrs intense therapy a day just to walk.

I wish to thank all of the VNA both the women and the men who have supported me and continue to support me, it is beyond appreciated, thanks for reading

Yours, Highwulf

—Edit— After 2 days at home with no pain relief my medication has been delivered to me and I am soon to be on the mend, or at least drugged up enough to care a little less about the pain,
Thanks for the support so far to all have commented, and those yet to do so

—Edit 2— I was told be my specialists yesterday that I am to take NO meds until Monday in order for my body to Detoxify from my previous 30+ pills a day to a new set of 30+ pills. For the last 24hrs and until Monday I am and will be in AGONY, suffering SEVERE depression, Aggression and even hallucinations while my body adapts from being on Meds to not.

—Edit 3— Since retrieving my hitachi my meds have been changed three times and dosage has been upped. The support I have received from the staff and fellow members has been invaluable in my continuing struggle to persevere the paralysis and agony of every day life. I am afraid to say and ashmed to ask but I still need support from time to time.
Am under new meds now and hopefully they will helps. Words of encouragement from the VNA Soldiers and Staff will be gratefully received.

—Edit 4— The last 2 weeks I have had a 24hr heart trace and 4 specialist appointments, needless to say I’ve been somewhat tired and it may or may not have come across to some of you. The appointment I had yesterday was regarding medications and it was determined that my anti-psychotics and antidepressants are having little to no effect and given that I was taking 1000mg of anti-psychotics and antidepressants keeping me on them would only damage me in the long run. I was given more Valium but told to stop taking the other medications. My body has already begun reacting to the stoppage, faint/dizzy spells and shaking among the symptoms I am having, standard withdrawal. The stupid thing is my specialist said that she would actually recommend Cannabis but unlike in the US (or certain states at least) we can’t get it in England prescribed to us, I have a 24hr brain scan and another specialist appointment to come in the next week, stay tuned and I’ll update you all when I know more

—Edit 5— I know I haven’t been active lately but am back now…
I took a vacation away with the family which unfortunately was cut short, in spite of my medications my pain reached critical levels & if I stayed with family would have been a danger either to them or to myself.
I had paramedics & 2 out of hours doctors out because my blackouts/seizures are lasting 30+ mins & am suffering near crippling vertigo, all of the time now.
I had my 24hr EEG & will get the results of that next week.
I apologise for being distant or inactive, you all mean the world to me & your support is invaluable.

I will still endeavor to be active both on twitter and the boards and where possible at the shows but please understand if I am distant, or do not respond quickly.

Yours, Highwulf

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Post subject: Re: Back from hospital/Medical issues (StickyVicky) -Edit 28

Posted: August 28th, 2012, 6:48 am

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